I’ve planned to write this post for awhile now but I wanted to wait until it was official. It will also provide you with an update on my life and what I’ve been doing in my absence from blogging. I don’t even know where to start but let’s just say my life has completely transformed and I’m such a different person now in the best possible way. After almost two years of being a contractor at work I’ve finally been offered a permanent position as a Contract Specialist. It’s been my dream since I started there to be taken on permanently but I never thought it would be in a position such as this. It’s a job I never thought I’d ever be able to achieve. The associated benefits literally blow my mind; I never thought I’d be so lucky even when I was much older than in my mid twenties. It’s life changing because it feels like I’ve entered a new world; I can save up to achieve dreams which I never used to think were realistic.
I cannot possibly put into words how much work has already changed my life already in the past two years. I actually become really emotional thinking about it and piecing together the parts of my journey which led me to where I am today. I am left completely and utterly speechless that something so good could happen to me. A large part of the reason why it’s so significant for me is because of this journey. I’ve hated my life for most of the last ten years (or more) and have been deeply unhappy. I’ve been at absolute rock bottom and even felt like living itself wasn’t even worth it. The years of major anxiety I experienced and the deep feelings of depression consumed my life for as long as I can remember. I think about to two years ago when I literally lied in bed and cried every day for months on end. The feelings of worthlessness, failure and self hatred that defeated me for almost my entire life. I also hated every second of university and was so miserable there; for the first time ever all those years finally feel worth it. I feel like I’ve been through a lot to get to where I am and that makes my current successes even more of an achievement.
It’s incredible to think about how every single aspect of my life has been changed because of work. I’m so much more positive about everything. I am so grateful for the opportunity I’ve been provided with and I know every single day how lucky I am. I’ve been pushed out of my comfort zone in so many respects that I rarely suffer from anxiety these days (two years ago I would have had a panic attack at the mere thought of running meetings, making phone calls or engaging in my current level of social interaction). I can start a conversation with anyone now and I don’t think I’m shy anymore. The self worth I’ve developed is life changing; being told I’ve done a good job or I’m experienced at a certain task has such a profound impact on me. It’s also the first time I’ve ever felt like I fit in. I feel like a valued member of the team that I’m well liked. These are all such new experiences for me. I’ve met the most incredible people. There are a few in particular that are responsible for providing me with the opportunity for this job to turn into what it has today and who I admire more than I could explain. I love being around positive and educated people all day who care about self improvement and push me to be better. It shocks me every single day that I fit in in a world like this.
I’m really proud of myself (and I never say that). I’ve put everything I have into work and made it my whole life. I’ve never tried so hard at anything before and it’s incredible to see the hard work pay off. I had nothing to lose when I started and I knew that it was the way out of everything I hate about my life. It’s been the best thing that’s ever happened to me and I couldn’t be happier. I can’t wait until tomorrow as it’s the official start date.
Now onto my outfit. I love this coat from Kitten D’Amour because it’s pink and fluffy! I adore the structured design and the longer length (very practical for those early mornings traveling to work). It’s so glam, classy and vintage in style. I couldn’t put it down when I saw it in the store. I’m so glad I bought it because it’s actually a very practical purchase; it’s so warm and I get much use from it. This is also my very first pair of Kurt Geiger heels! (I’ve since bought them in hot pink also). I adore this brand of shoes and am admiring so many pairs at the moment. However, Kurt Geiger is usually out of my price range. But the sales have been pretty amazing lately and I scored these for 65% off the original retail price. Speaking of good discounts, my dress is another amazing sales find. It’s been awhile since I acquired a new Review dress and I’ve missed them (while I’ve been cheating on Review with Kitten D’Amour). I adore the different colour combinations for this dress; the options are completely endless.