This outfit incorporates another skirt that I made in sewing class (which I am planning to show in more detail at a later stage) and my new leopard print top that I wore for the first time to work last week. I love sewing my own skirts now and it makes me think twice before purchasing skirts at the shops. Unless it was a special occassion, I would probably always choose to make skirts now instead of purchase them. I also love how it addresses the deficiencies of the shops, primarily the lack of plain coloured skirts at a respectable length. I finally decided what to wear my leopard print top with. I have a few different ideas thanks to your comments but this time I thought red would look good. I am also wearing one of my trench coats yet again.It is becoming far too cold to dress in these sorts of clothes at the moment. Often I put up with the cold because I am terrible at dressing for winter but there is only a certain extent to which I can do this.
This is my first outfit post with my new computer. It’s so exciting to have such a fabulous new computer.
Now onto some life ramblings so if you are just here for the fashion then feel free to skip what I am about to write. I just need to express my views about certain aspects of life. For most of my childhood and teenage years I felt pressure to change certain aspects of my personality and to be someone that I was not and when I realised that some of these unique character traits were unchangeable I felt deeply unhappy and insecure about myself as a person. I remember when I was growing up, various sources always delivered the cliched message that we should just be ourselves, resist the peer pressure and everything would just fall into place. I never trusted this piece of advice. I believed it was only true in theory and not in reality and that no one truly liked the person that I was. Since the end of last year I have really tried to work on this aspect of my life by attempting to gain a clearer understanding and acceptance of who I am as a person. I always though these concepts were vague and lacked substance but now I don’t feel that as much and I am slowly accepting the person that I have become and realising that there are many aspects of that which I actually like. I feel like I am slowly making some progress. However, I have also realised that there will always be people who challenge your views and beliefs, who try and change who you are or who constantly voice their opinion over certain aspects of your life. I have realised that just because high school is over, it doesn’t mean the pressure to conform or think and act a certain way is over. It simply exists in a different form. For me, people are often saying, you’re too shy, you don’t have enough friends, you analysing situations and thoughts too much, you are generally too negative, you are too tame and innocent, you take things too seriously, you feel too much and have too many emotions, you need to relax, you have your priorities wrong, you have an extremely small comfort zone and many more. A range of people seem to want to try and tell me what I desire from life, like just because I am in my early twenties I am supposed to want to travel and I am supposed to want to go out to night clubs on Saturday nights. Everyone is a different person and no one can judge how another person feels or what another person wants from life. I think it is really hard to stand up for the person that you are and truly be yourself and I highly respect anyone that has the courage and confidence to do so.